Early morning rains, cool breeze rejuvenating the sleepy soul, birds chirping as if greeting one for a new beginning on a new day and as you step out into your balcony greenery everywhere …such a lovely treat to the eyes! The sun still waiting for the clock to strike 5:30am and rise high! Such a beautiful start but still seems as if something is missing.
Love! It’s such a powerful word. It can blossom any flower in any season even in unfavorable conditions! Since then every thing seemed magical. Seemed as if brain has been set on standby mode and heart has taken over everything. All it took was just a statement, oh you are in Love! And there you go!
Days are passing by every 24hr, everything is normal, the time, the people, my routine- everything. Some brilliant news keeps breaking in here and there. Good enough to raise the graph and cheer the mood. It feels great to know ones dearest friends moving ahead, getting hooked up and forwarding steps to start with a new life. The enthusiasm to celebrate their milestones of life rises up steep with n number of plans, a few advices and many more gossips. And as you sit down sidelining self from the people around all the energy slows down. As if something is incomplete, something is limiting self, don’t know what but it does.
Things keep running at the back of the mind subconsciously even when you keep yourself occupied with work. In today’s world where life runs in 3G speed even our brains have adapted multitasking just the way our virtual world technology has. Talk of gadgets! Be it a workplace or any where they out number the people sitting around. The moment you take a break from ones own world you see people, shaking their heads with ears plugged in, engrossed in playing some games, talking to someone with their phones or else totally lost as they continue chatting/texting and you seem to be left alone. Directionless wondering where are you actually going and when would this era of joblessness end.
I never deny being a gaming freak but nowadays I try spending some more time with self, pondering and gazing things around. No sad stories or happenings associated but simply in lieu of figuring out what actually is missing! People often seek for my help when unable to conclude! I did the same, presented my case to a friend of mine and a long list of questions followed.
Friend-How many hours of sound sleep you take?
Me- Umm don’t know exactly but it’s like I hardly take a sound sleep!
Friend-Why what’s wrong?
Me- I wake up many a times as I doze!
Friend- Hmm sleepless nights! I see.
Me-Why? Something wrong? Huh?
Friend-No dear, not as of yet! So tell me how many times a day you eat? I mean your daily diet plan.
Me- You know it buddy, I’m a foody person! Simply love food!
Friend- yes I know but still a rough review of past few days.
Me-Alright! I..ummm I’ve been skipping my breakfast. I have normal lunch, some snacks in evening and dinner. But yeah since a few days I eat only half of my lunch and don’t feel actually hungry so dine minimally.
Friend-Oh, news is not that good! And as far as I’ve observed you often seem to be lost somewhere, sit quietly, stressed and greatly affected by your mood swings. Also that you keep checking your cell phone every now and then!
Me- umm really?(little confused) May be! I do find something is missing! And yeah have been misplacing things here and there! Absentmindedness you see!!! But what’s wrong?
Could you please elaborate?
Friend- I doubt you are struck! Struck with a cupid’s arrow!
Me(greatly perplexed)- Huh!!! Cupid??? You mean love? (laughing) hahaha NO!
Friend- No you are! Love it is! These are the initial symptoms! Haven’t you seen in movies? But with whom ? You never told me! Cheat! I shared every single thing and you!
Me(surprised)- Wait a minute! No!!! With whom! And what cheat, it’s a breaking news for me too! You mean to say I’ve been hooked/booked and absolutely ready to be cooked? Shhhh… For god’s sake stop it. Let me figure it out on my own silly!
I’m single! Single since birth! I’ll but obvio share it once I myself validate things!
I have seen my friends, busy all day texting and talking to their gf/bf but imagining self of being infected with the same contagious disease! Omg ..No! pathetic it is! After the discussion mixed feelings seeped in, partly surprised, partly confused and a little happy (expecting some happening life ahead) I went back home.
Love! It’s such a powerful word. It can blossom any flower in any season even in unfavorable conditions! Since then every thing seemed magical. Seemed as if brain has been set on standby mode and heart has taken over everything. All it took was just a statement, oh you are in Love! And there you go!
I found myself stressed less… dressed all the more well, humming melodies wearing a constant smile and gazing the beauty of nature in this romantic season all day round! As if celebrating the accidental hit and welcoming the gradual emotional imbalance it carries along! Little did I wonder Love, as in what, when, how and more importantly with whom! Hehe.
With heart beating and mind bursting out with different thoughts had some long chats with friends who were not in touch. Not that the newly diagnosed shocking problem that although sounded like music to ears was disclosed, but normal talks of their well being etc continued. Exchanging good morning and good night greetings was a common ritual with almost all the near and dear ones in my whats app list!
As the days passed by I learned that it’s true, and that it feels so great holding the bird called love. Nothing heard nothing said as of yet but that feel good thing kept growing. We planned a meet on coming Sunday. I hardly realized that it’s the very next day until I read an inbox mentioning the time and venue anticipating a positive response. Prepared for the great day and determined enough to express myself indeed I dozed off imagining the scene, blushing and smiling!
The clock strike 5:00, the very next morning. Searched for my cell to snooze the alarm and there my gloomy eyes widens up to know Monday it is!!! Jaw dropped, heart throbbed and brain.. ah that was already in shock! One day of my life missing! I jumped off my bed hastily. Before I could get back to my consciousness, opened the doors of my balcony, I eventually realized that I just stepped out one parallel world running and I living it subconsciously.
P.S. – Hey not everything was my imagination. The sleepless nights, the lost appetite, the mood swings, the absentmindedness, the endless pondering session etc are all the same. The conclusion now differs here. It’s the anxiety related to the career and life ahead which has probably resulted as a consequence of long period of nothingness! :p
Well still that something is missing… no not love again! It’s the motivation and some driving force to set up another goal for near future.
Another fact rediscovered is that talking, keeping in touch with the near ones keeps your mood lighter and cheerful.
As far as that bird called love is concerned, I’m sure it’s on her way to my place. Story in making I suppose but I’m still happy because the prognosis of this ailment is far better than the one my friend had diagnosed. :p ;) :p
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